rainy days turn me emo

[[No One Will Ever Love You ~ The Magnetic Fields]]

You know you are getting old when you see groups of teenagers on the subway and you just fucking hate them. Like they are loud and cooler and skinnier than you, and it just fills you with rage because they seem like they're having SO MUCH MORE FUN THAN YOU WILL EVER HAVE AGAIN. they're not really though. i am always thinking about how much fun i used to be having when really when i was in it, it wasn't necessarily that fun. i feel like that's what substance abuse problems must be partly based on: trying to get back to some fun place you think you remember having which maybe were never even as good as you thought they were. erg.

A quote (which I should mention was introduced to me by Sam K):
Finish each day and be done with it. You have done what you could. Some blunders and absurdities no doubt crept in; forget them as soon as you can. Tomorrow is a new day; begin it well and serenely and with too high a spirit to be encumbered with your old nonsense.
Ralph Waldo Emerson, (attributed)
US essayist & poet (1803 - 1882)

As lame as this sounds, I am rediscovering my love of music.

spoiler alert!

not really. i am pissy because emeffing jezebel can't put an emeffing spoiler alert up on their spoiler-filled page and now i know which projrun designers premiered at Fashion Week. gosh, jezebel, i thought you'd be better than that.

my new show update:
I have given up on 90210 and am giving True Blood one more episode to hook me. I'm halfway through the pilot of Fringe and not bored yet, but I don't like those non-serialized CSI type shows, so we'll see. I'll also prob tune into the Ex List, just b/c I loved Elizabeth Reaser on Grey's.

my two new favorite songs right now for moments of poignancy and feeling lost in this big wide world:

new york, i love you but you're bringing me down~ lcd soundsystem

favorite lyrics:
"So the boring collect/I mean all disrespect/In the neighborhood bars I'd once dreamt I would drink."
"But you're still the one pool where I'd happily drown."

i am all props to gossip girl for using this song, but i think i'm going to stop watching gossip girl now. it is no the o.c., i will tell you that much.

america ~ Simon & Garfunkel

favorite lyric:
"kathy, Im lost, I said, though I knew she was sleeping
Im empty and aching and I dont know why"

had a long conversation with katie today about EL FUTURO, the job search, how we are all basically fucked, even though i am not now. i should be crying out with joy for being not, but i am too freaked out by the idea of being a grown-up to do anything but cling desperately to the past.

nelson: "It is so much better to be freaked out than bored. That would be the worst." It really would.

if you're going to wear your heart on your sleeve, cover it up with a sweater.

this has been a tumultous week, to say the LEAST.
a lot has happened in the last seven days. i wrote it all down here, but then i deleted it. if you want to know what's going on, give me a ring. just so that you don't freak out, it's about half really awesome and half kind of depressing.

i don't think i've processed any of it yet.

Fact of the Day

Did you know there are only 18 Starbucks-es in all of Brooklyn? CRAZY.

this trailer makes me pee a little

too exciting.
reasons i am excited for this movie:
-the title alone
-jay baruchel (loved him since undeclared, love him more since he wore adorkable glasses in tropic thunder)
-a girl dressed up as a christmas tree
-new york city!
-guy from spring awakening
-michael cera
-michael cera playing guitar!

and now a digression on michael cera: i wish he could play other characters... maybe he can. but he hasn't yet. however, with each movie he does, that exact same character gets slightly more desirable to girls...
2003-2006: George MIchael, Arrested Development- could not get a girl for the life of him, had a crush on his cousin, dated Bland- I mean Anne. My friends used to make fun of me for having a crush on him. (This may be because I was 3 years older than his character, but WHO'S LAUGHING NOW, BITCHES?)
2007: Evan, Superbad- hopelessly dorky in front of his crush but somehow manages to win her over
later 2007: Paulie Bleecker, Juno- Now, not only does his crush eventually like him in the end but he also manages to get another girl in his crush's absence.
2008: Nick, Nick & Norah's Infinite Playlist- Has a real girlfriend at the beginning of this movie and then, another girl starts liking him during the movie.

Doesn't this say something about the cultural zeitgeist? That now dorky awkward guys don't even have to fight for their cousin's affection but rather have cute skinny girls just hanging on their every word and fighting each other for them. Gosh. There was a time when I was alone in my dorklove.

labor day weekend wuwu

Quote of the Day:
"When I tour, I'm neither homosexual or heterosexual — I'm hobo-sexual. So that basically opens yourself up to anything at all — you could have sex with a piece of cheese and it would be totally natural." —King Khan [Pitchfork]

I have no idea what that means... swiss cheese?

It's the end of the summer as I know it, and I feel fine... ish. I am weirded out by the idea of all the '09/'10/'11-ers going back to school. I want to go back to school. I registered for Justice online, so I can pretend I'm taking a Harvard class. Huzzahzles. I can't imagine I will actually watch any of the lectures, but it might be interesting.

Sachi's Political Commentary of the Week:
Does anyone else think that Sarah Palin looks a little like Ashley Banfield + Nia Vardalos with un poquito de TFeyzles thrown in? Does anyone else know who those people are? (p.s. Real life question: Is there a job I could do that would just require me to know names of famous people? I think I'd be good at that.)